A writer's dreams
Dreamers dream and moments turn into minutes, hours, days, their system gets filled with those dreams which finally flows over their brim as drops of words, then phrases trickles down and finally an avalanche of sentences to form beautiful pieces of work. - Joshua Cherian Varughese
Friday, July 27, 2012
THE UNTIMELY FLIGHT
Sunday, April 15, 2012
Towing Tales
Tuesday, March 27, 2012
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Wednesday, May 11, 2011
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That day was my first day on training which taught me to push hard and harder until my perception of my limit extends further and further. The hot afternoons that I roamed in the sun, the kilometers that I walked without ever complaining, the days I went without quality food, amenities are attributed to that training which started on that day, that which continued into several school & college, state & national athletic meets covering a span of almost ten years in my life. That overshoot which budded on my life that day led to those valuable days surrounded by smell of volini, sound of spikes piercing grounds of different colours and the taste of sand and sweat in our mouths. Those days when blood heats up to such temperatures that you feel that you are gonna explode in that excitement, those were days of action and little words. I’m afraid the days of words has started and I don’t like it!!
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
DIRT KINGS
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
‘ILL’ IN ILLUSIONS
While dancing about in grandeur with the wind, something so unworthy and unlikely of the dust particle happened to it- an impossibility for the particle became possible, it did something that it never should have. It DREAMED!!! It dreamed of being one with the glory of the world it saw. A dream in which it attained all the glories that it saw in a glimpse, a fraction of time that showed it the deceitfully enticing world around and all the colours of it.
He felt as if she was calling to him to come and be one with her. All he could think of was to go to her and be a part of what she was. He denied any obstacle that lay in between- he seemed to push them all into that dark hole called oblivion caused by love so that he would never see those obstacles again(or was it the lust for her beauty).
Late was he when he realized that he was wrong. The storm abated, the wind ceased. The dust started to lose height. It dropped fast back to where it lay. Dropping fast despite of his cry for his love. None heard those cries for it did not have a voice. And in the silence of its own inability to cry, it cried; grappling with reality to hold fast to its dream with false hopes of being with her one day, refusing and violently rejecting the thought that she’ll never come to him. The particle finally fell back to the ground waiting to be trampled upon and then he finally realized- I’m dust and here I belong!!
A PEBBLE’S GEM HUNT
(Prelude: “Sometimes I sit with the gem in my hand doing nothing but stare at their beauty, I feel that I glimpse eternity as I float around in their blinding dazzle”)
I bend over; I search through the rotten and stinking refuse, through silt and sand with seconds ticking away into hours, days and years. My hands harden with labour and I feel as if I it has been ages since I’ve stood straight. But when I will finally find it, that gleaming and glittering stone flaunting their colour through its facets, shining as if to redefine the definition of ‘dazzling’, then I will feel as though I’ve been paid for the years of nothingness. I know it because I’ve found them in the past. And when I hold them tight in my hand as if to feel what they are inside( something that I cannot be, a beauty too profound for me to fathom), I feel that I’m one of them but then as I start loving them and share all that I have with their brilliance, I feel liquid on my palms. That is when I open my tightly clutched arms to see that the gem is gone and my hands have started bleeding at the place I held ‘my precious’.
Each time I bleed, my brain tells me to bail out of this race (because I don’t see a goal ahead, it is just a dream that drives me) but my heart tells me to go on. Each time a gem makes me bleed(and disappears) the sad realization dawns on me that she is not for me and I have to keep on searching. So I go on and on and on…
I dream about them all the time, there isn’t a moment that passes by without me dreaming about a gem that would change my life; a gem that would transform me, one that would love me even as I’m a pebble (sometime my looks made me a pebble, sometimes my family, sometimes the place I’m from, sometimes the God I worship, sometimes something else). But the more I seem to find and love the gems, the more I lose hope of that day when ‘my precious’ would come to take me to the wonderland to transform me. Will she come?
But something keeps telling me not to lose hope. So, I work through the dirt forgetting the fact that I’m just a pebble who would not settle for another pebble because in a pebble’s dream it is a gem that it becomes. I come across phony gems among all the other pebbles and dirt that slips through my hand as I work my way through the never ending mound of earth (which was not gracious enough to make me a gem when I was born) and they waste my time making me think that they are real but as time passes and trials descent, I learn that they are nothing but phony gems. When I get a real gem I immediately know that it is real because I feel my heart throb and blood gush merrily through my veins.
I don’t know if I have a destination, a goal or a prize. All I know is that If I don’t get a gem, I will die without a gem and wont regret of not having dreamed of it.
‘All that I am is just another pebble, yet of a gem I dream
I search foolishly through rain, shine and hail
The scars of my pebble body are the gifts o gems that I found in the past
Yet for their bruises, I’ll toil
For though they make me bleed, their bruises are so sweet
So will I work, spend all I have to find a gem, the one that I dream of’
ODE to the pebble:
“SO HE TOILED AND TOILED, ONE DAY HE DISAPPEARED WHEN FINALLY ALL THE SUBSTANCE THAT HIS PEBBLE BODY WAS MADE OF WORE AWAY BY THE WOUNDS AND DEEP SCARS GIFTED BY GEMS. NOW HE LIES IN THE SAND WITH ALL OTHER GRAINS NOT EVEN RECOGNISED AS THE PEBBLE WHICH NEVER GAVE UP. HE LIES